Well, I definitely feel that. [ Regret. Guilt. It eats her alive from the inside; kind of ironic, honestly, considering the people she murdered in Haven just to feed herself. ] If I didn't, I don't think I'd be up here wondering how fast it'd take for my brains to be splattered on the pavement down there.
[ They're similar, in that way. Other people have forgiven her or, for the better, forgotten. Like Jo. So why can't she forgive herself? Why is she still a monster that no one but her believes her to be? The blond plops down to sit on the edge of the building now with feet dangling over the side. Any notion of jumping seems to have passed. ]
I made a lot of mistakes, in the world before this one. [ A beat. ] I eat people, see. Soylent green. That's supposed to be my kind's my diet. We trip people on mountain passes and eat them because of course we do.
[ A bitter, sardonic laugh. ]
I was never good at doing what I was supposed to though since I was little, which is another sob story for another day, but in Haven there was this crazy-ass doctor. Phillip Kite. He experimented on me and drove me to a feral state where I ate someone. And also made it so I couldn't stop eating people. It's... an addiction, I guess. He changed my physiology, maybe. I can't eat anything else anymore, all tastes like garbage.
Not that I've... eaten since I came to Hadriel, but. I'm afraid I will the longer this goes on, the hungrier I get. I keep thinking I should just end it all before the inevitable happens.
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[ They're similar, in that way. Other people have forgiven her or, for the better, forgotten. Like Jo. So why can't she forgive herself? Why is she still a monster that no one but her believes her to be? The blond plops down to sit on the edge of the building now with feet dangling over the side. Any notion of jumping seems to have passed. ]
I made a lot of mistakes, in the world before this one. [ A beat. ] I eat people, see. Soylent green. That's supposed to be my kind's my diet. We trip people on mountain passes and eat them because of course we do.
[ A bitter, sardonic laugh. ]
I was never good at doing what I was supposed to though since I was little, which is another sob story for another day, but in Haven there was this crazy-ass doctor. Phillip Kite. He experimented on me and drove me to a feral state where I ate someone. And also made it so I couldn't stop eating people. It's... an addiction, I guess. He changed my physiology, maybe. I can't eat anything else anymore, all tastes like garbage.
Not that I've... eaten since I came to Hadriel, but. I'm afraid I will the longer this goes on, the hungrier I get. I keep thinking I should just end it all before the inevitable happens.