[ In a way, she appreciates Rey's honesty. Because she's right. It's the easy way out.
Rose has always like the easy way. It's why she ran back home, it's why she eventually tried to permanently end it in Haven, and now why she tried to die here too. Still wants to.
The woman barks a laugh at that last bit though. ]
Ah, yeah, I've. I've been there. In Haven, my packmates... After I tried to kill myself there, they alternated being so pissed they didn't even know where to begin telling me off and then trying to understand. Treating me like I was going to crack again any second. [ She pauses, looking wistfully out at the dilapidated underground city she's been stuck in for almost a year. ]
Hiruma, actually... I think he did it best. He told me 'You're not alone, Rosie' after giving me an earful. But then he didn't let me sit down and wallow. He didn't treat me like I was porcelain. He got my ass up - even when it was the last thing I wanted - and running. He knew I was still capable, I just needed to see for myself I was.
[ There's a long silence that settles after that. Tears burn her waterline before she breathes out. ]
I miss him. I miss all of them. They were packmates and I don't. I don't know what to do without them sometimes, honestly. It's like part of me's missing. There's no way to replace them, I can't, but I think I need... I need to find a way to ease the pain the holes they left behind caused. Something. Anything. But I don't know what.
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Rose has always like the easy way. It's why she ran back home, it's why she eventually tried to permanently end it in Haven, and now why she tried to die here too. Still wants to.
The woman barks a laugh at that last bit though. ]
Ah, yeah, I've. I've been there. In Haven, my packmates... After I tried to kill myself there, they alternated being so pissed they didn't even know where to begin telling me off and then trying to understand. Treating me like I was going to crack again any second. [ She pauses, looking wistfully out at the dilapidated underground city she's been stuck in for almost a year. ]
Hiruma, actually... I think he did it best. He told me 'You're not alone, Rosie' after giving me an earful. But then he didn't let me sit down and wallow. He didn't treat me like I was porcelain. He got my ass up - even when it was the last thing I wanted - and running. He knew I was still capable, I just needed to see for myself I was.
[ There's a long silence that settles after that. Tears burn her waterline before she breathes out. ]
I miss him. I miss all of them. They were packmates and I don't. I don't know what to do without them sometimes, honestly. It's like part of me's missing. There's no way to replace them, I can't, but I think I need... I need to find a way to ease the pain the holes they left behind caused. Something. Anything. But I don't know what.