"not here right now.
leave a message. will get back to you soon.
probably."
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NOTE: As of 12/2016, Rey has adopted the alias "Fiona Stransky" when working with the Guard. Something to keep in mind, as Rey maintains a low profile with her involvement in the group. Other than what is mentioned in the Guard records, there is no trace of a "Fiona" identified on the network.
[Rey is very familiar with that urge, and all the same doesn't wish it on anyone. Even someone as infuriating as Rosie. Sure, at one point Rey would have liked nothing more than to dig a knife through the other woman's throat; circumstances were just a little different then. She was still fired up about Love's revival, and some open wounds that were still fresh. Not that she's entirely over it, but...
[Same difference, really.
[She scoffs at Rosie's reply, as Rey moves away from the ledge herself.]
Harder than you know, [ she admits, in a rare moment of honesty. Her gaze goes unfocused for a moment as the problem of how hungry she is rears its ugly head, but. She snaps back in a second. ]
But now that I stepped away, hopefully... It'll be easier to stay away again. I don't know, really, but.
[Rey doesn't like that being their only option. She can't keep an eye on Rosie all the time, or know whether or not she's going to try and pull a jumper again. But this is already improvement.
[Something Rosie mentioned moments ago does nag at Rey, now that she's had some time to think about it.]
Is there anything that can be done about your hunger? Something that doesn't involve you snuffing yourself or other people?
[ Nor does Rose expect her to. It's... Look, it's going to be a bit touch and go for a while, but hopefully she can get to a place where she's marginally a bit more 'okay.' More and more she's not sure she ever will be truly alright, honestly.
More and more she's thinking she never was to begin with though. ]
I don't know, [ she admits. ] Back in Haven, I had a... supplier. Someone who was able to regenerate from getting literal chunks taken out of him. [ And he's here, is the worst part. But they were co-dependent and unhealthy. She tried to reach out him only to get no response too so that kind of said all it needed to. ] But that's not an option anymore, so.
[That doesn't sound ideal, though the first thing to come to mind now is Sato. Though she doubts he'd be so willing to extend aid without getting something in return.
[Of course, there's always the option of just taking from him. Not like he's ever needed permission from anyone else.]
Maybe there's a way to reverse what's been done to you? Ever tried asking one of the gods, or someone here?
[Since Rose seems so friendly with their captors, she shouldn't have any trouble asking for favors. Right?]
[ Even if Rey were to find a solution, Rose isn't sure she wants one. ... She's fine, being a martyr. ]
I don't know. Whatever Kite did, it fucked me up something fierce. I always thought... it'd be too much to ask, I guess.
[ She is friendly with them, but that means, ]
They got enough shit going on.
[ that she doesn't like asking things of them, like she doesn't any of her friends. It doesn't feel right, not when they're facing the threat of the Null on top of trying to rebuild. ]
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[Same difference, really.
[She scoffs at Rosie's reply, as Rey moves away from the ledge herself.]
There. That wasn't so hard, now was it?
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But now that I stepped away, hopefully... It'll be easier to stay away again. I don't know, really, but.
We'll see, I guess.
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[Rey doesn't like that being their only option. She can't keep an eye on Rosie all the time, or know whether or not she's going to try and pull a jumper again. But this is already improvement.
[Something Rosie mentioned moments ago does nag at Rey, now that she's had some time to think about it.]
Is there anything that can be done about your hunger? Something that doesn't involve you snuffing yourself or other people?
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More and more she's thinking she never was to begin with though. ]
I don't know, [ she admits. ] Back in Haven, I had a... supplier. Someone who was able to regenerate from getting literal chunks taken out of him. [ And he's here, is the worst part. But they were co-dependent and unhealthy. She tried to reach out him only to get no response too so that kind of said all it needed to. ] But that's not an option anymore, so.
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[Of course, there's always the option of just taking from him. Not like he's ever needed permission from anyone else.]
Maybe there's a way to reverse what's been done to you? Ever tried asking one of the gods, or someone here?
[Since Rose seems so friendly with their captors, she shouldn't have any trouble asking for favors. Right?]
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I don't know. Whatever Kite did, it fucked me up something fierce. I always thought... it'd be too much to ask, I guess.
[ She is friendly with them, but that means, ]
They got enough shit going on.
[ that she doesn't like asking things of them, like she doesn't any of her friends. It doesn't feel right, not when they're facing the threat of the Null on top of trying to rebuild. ]
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Don't you think you'd be more useful to them if you're not dying or thinking of throwing yourself off their architecture?
[While Rey can see where Rosie is coming from, it's always easier to call someone out on their shit when they're not you.]
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I dunno', Sorrow's probably having a friggin' field day with me lately.
[ Though when she'd hinted at giving into her sorrow before, he'd seemed
Well, not understanding because they can't understand. She doesn't think so, anyway. Still.
He'd told her not to give up. That she was needed. ]
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Will hit you again. Will hit you so hard you'll wish it'd only knock your head right off your shoulders, but it won't, but you'll hate it anyway.
[Seriously, Rose. It won't be pretty.]
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Alright, alright. I'll stop being such a sad sack. Maybe I'll talk to Hope.
Maybe.
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[Look at Rey now, all asserting herself and shit.]
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Okay, mom.
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You know, the last person to call me that was actually serious about it.
[It's awkward.]
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Wait, what. No, uh. Trust me, I don't mean it. You're definitely more like a bro to me, I think.
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[It's weird shit for her to hear, okay?]
It's fine, yes. Bro. Good. [Yes.]