"not here right now.
leave a message. will get back to you soon.
probably."
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NOTE: As of 12/2016, Rey has adopted the alias "Fiona Stransky" when working with the Guard. Something to keep in mind, as Rey maintains a low profile with her involvement in the group. Other than what is mentioned in the Guard records, there is no trace of a "Fiona" identified on the network.
I--enjoyed having dinner with you, Rey. I liked going dancing. And I am -- here. I'm not -- used to this sort of thing. I admit I may not be very good at it.
[Funny. Bianca wasn't too long ago, the memory of their last conversation hardly even a distant one. And yet, for some reason, everything feels different with Maketh. Special in it's own right. Everything has a new meaning now.]
If you're sure, then so am I.
I didn't...
[She stops.] I couldn't help but wonder if it really was okay, back then. With her. That maybe things happened because... I don't know. [Shrug.] I was holding her back?
[Or maybe it went both ways, and Rey just can't see that.]
Guess I just-- I don't want to hold anyone back. Because of me. [Because of how she is, and because of her experiences.]
[In most cases when Rey had been resigned to giving up, she still fought. She's been fighting her whole life, since the day she was "born" -- she doesn't know how not to.]
Well, you've always been pretty damned persistent, yourself.
[It's not entirely what Maketh meant, but she smiles nonetheless. She likes this, having dinner with Rey. Speaking with her over a glass of good mead. They ought to do it more.] Good. That -- that is very good.
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He does. I just try to make sure to remind him. Think we all can use those every now and then.
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It's easy to -- think of yourself a certain way. Or at least it is easy for me. I am trying to be better. But it does not always go well.
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[She takes a moment to place a hand over Maketh's arm, giving her a soft look.]
You're doing good, all right?
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Today, I am doing quite well. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to talk about such dire things.
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No worries. It's just, um. I want you to be okay. In general, and -- this.
[That could stand to be a little more coherent. Oh well.]
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This? I don't understand.
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[She still struggles trying to put emotions into words, even now.]
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Oh. Maketh ducks her head, smiling.]
I--enjoyed having dinner with you, Rey. I liked going dancing. And I am -- here. I'm not -- used to this sort of thing. I admit I may not be very good at it.
[She lifts her head, expression serious.]
But I want to try.
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[She shifts in her seat, leaning forward a little.]
I'm not expecting any grand sonnets or sweeping me off my feet. I don't think your spine would forgive you if you tried that last one, anyway.
[Because Rey is heavy as fuck.]
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No, I don't think it would! But I would like to go dancing again. To make you good coffee. Would that -- would that be all right?
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Of course it would. I, um. I like this.
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I know it didn't -- quite work, with Bianca. I don't mind taking it slowly.
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If you're sure, then so am I.
I didn't...
[She stops.] I couldn't help but wonder if it really was okay, back then. With her. That maybe things happened because... I don't know. [Shrug.] I was holding her back?
[Or maybe it went both ways, and Rey just can't see that.]
Guess I just-- I don't want to hold anyone back. Because of me. [Because of how she is, and because of her experiences.]
Sorry. I'm rambling.
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You will not hold me back. I am quite certain of that.
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[A futile thing to ask, really. But she trusts Maketh not to give her a bullshit answer.]
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[She meets Rey's eyes.]
I am done -- playing a role. I want to be myself. Even if that self occasionally finds you frustrating.
[She gives Rey a little smile.]
You are a very stubborn woman.
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I'd apologize, but I'm not really sorry because that's the one reason why I'm still alive. Too stubborn to die -- or stay dead, for that matter.
[It's a better reason than living because others have willed it.]
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Quite true. I complain, but I do admire that as well.
[Rey doesn't give up. She grumbles sometimes and digs in her heels, but she endures. There's something to be said for that.]
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Well, you've always been pretty damned persistent, yourself.
[Which she means in the nicest way possible!]
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I have worked very hard to get what I have.
[Not all of it was worth keeping. She knows that now. But still she fought.]
But. I am trying not to fight all the time.
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Well, that's a relief. Don't think I like fighting you that much.
[It's a wry but sincere comment.]
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[And a compliment. Maketh tucks a strand of hair behind her ear, watching Rey.]
We -- we can do this more often, can't we? Have dinner. I -- would like that very much.
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[Most people wouldn't think to go to Rey for pearls of wisdom, but she has them. Sometimes.
[She almost balks at Maketh's question.] Yes, of course. I'd pick dinner over arguing any day.
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There anything you want to do after this? Our options are limited, otherwise I'd take you to a movie or something.
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